I think I might need to start seeing a therapist, but who has the time?

Seriously, I cannot stop being SAD!  My kids have been with their dad for the last week (1 more week) and it has gotten me to the point where I can't accomplish anything, can't seem to function much other than basic needs.  Even just now, I started dinner cooking, and then I ended burning it because I forgot it was cooking, so I don't have anything to eat now.

I miss them terribly, and it makes me start thinking about how much he must miss them because he only sees them a few times per year.

The truth is, I would do anything to make our family whole again.  And I would do anything to make him better so he could see how to do it.  But it's all completely out of my control.  That's what is so hard for me, no matter how much I wish and pray and hope that it will all be a nightmare, it is just not going to change unless he decides to change it.

I fear it might be too late.